Waiting...again....

Short update: US Embassy accepted (not approved) Jacob's file today. Reminder: Jeremiah's was accepted (not approved) last Tuesday. Now we wait to see when they're approved and if additional interviews,etc are requested. Doesn't look like travel this weekend.

Rambling Update:
This adoption process sure has been refining. I can't say I'm any 'better' at WAITing now then when we began. What I can say is that I'm learning there is GOOD AND GOD in the WAIT. So, I lean into it with a little less 'resistance' and a little more 'hope' as I know I'm not DRIVING this journey. Somehow I forgot that this weekend in my kick-hiney mode. I forgot it wasn't up to me to have life 'ordered' for my family and figured out for the next decade. Something about adding 2 toddlers to the crew does 'hit me' as paralysis at times.

I think it's the uncertainty that is harder for me than the 'hard times'. That's when it hits me. I'm putting my faith in what is around me (really always uncertain) verses what is true, certain and GOOD in Christ. What around me never 'qualified' me for adopting our sons. What around me never 'qualified' me for being adopted by God. I'm grateful for waiting again...but waiting on the Lord, not the uncertain to become certain.

Pray with us as BOTH THE BOYS FILES ARE AT US EMBASSY as of today! Word is no one heard from files submitted last week (like Jeremiahs). So we can probably safely say it won't be this weekend;p AND that we probably will get separate dates/approval for the boys. Do you see? I CAN'T DO THIS!! I try every decision tree imaginable in these situations and try to 'insert here cindy's ideas' to influence what I can't. Thankfully, God isn't surprised by my panic and wandering, but also doesn't give me my way. I'm glad. My way looks very anxiety ridden and no joy. Thanks Jesus for drawing me near. I'm waiting...ON YOU!
(p.s. I really!!! did want to make it thru Kaylee Ann's dance recital on Sunday..and so did she. Could it bet that's best?! stay tuned).